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Attempting to keep calm and carry on

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Dear Readers, as the sun shines so extremely brightly today in Denver, reflecting upon the white, frozen snow and ice everywhere, I feel I can hardly stand all the energies that are pounding us puny humans right now. Weird happenings are popping up all over, including school alarms and closings due to strange chemical leaks and possible bursting pipes the past two days at both schools I was to work at in the afternoons. Accidents, the possibility for accidents, and just all around INTENSITY is the order of the day and night. Plus, the temperatures here have broken records for cold on this date: Not so hideously frigid as the midwest has been this winter, granted, but still miserable enough for this body to try to grapple with. I despise extremes, and with extremes becoming the norm, there is not much one can do except to work on the ‘Accepting What Is’ theory of life. Sigh.

It feels like the rubber band of polarity is becoming stretched to the point of soon breaking completely. What will happen when it does, is anyone’s guess. One thing it clear to me, there is no such thing as ‘business as usual’ anymore. The past couple of days have been rough. Yesterday I spent two hours traveling by buses to the farthest outpost of civilization (well, sort of), at a big school for my after-school art class, only to be greeted by a police officer who was reluctant to allow me to enter, as a chemical leak of some kind or other had closed down school and all activities for the day. There I was, in the middle of nowhere, in freezing cold temps, with no choice but to turn around and wait for another bus to bring me back to central Denver. No phone, (because I have no funds to sign up for the plan yet) no car of course, and I really felt helpless. What the hell (that has frozen over) is going on here, I asked God. What am I doing here and why? The futility of the situation was ready to overwhelm me. Then, mercifully, the site coordinator for the after-school program drove up in her warm car, and offered to take me home, miles out of her way. The moment of Grace arrived once again.

Knowing that I am not the only one having a hard time is cold comfort, however. I am trying to find the humor in all of this, or the irony, or basically ANYTHING redeeming in it, but am not having much luck. My mind wanders, as bits of all sorts of strange thoughts, memories, song snippets, lines of poetry, overheard conversations and all manner of detritus float through it. At moments I feel as if I am in a waking dream, unable to fully focus or grasp what is really happening here, on Earth. It becomes surreal, unreal, with only the biting cold or empty purse to remind me that oh, yes, I am still embodied, I am a human in a physical body, and it is not pleasant right about now!!

I read positive words galore: rejoice Humans!! You are doing great, you are magnificent beings, doing great work on behalf of us, your spiritual counterparts. I read lots of stuff by other humans, who sound so wise and positive and upbeat, like nothing unusual is going on, like everything is hunky-dory.

But it sounds hollow to me, not quite real. If ever there was an unusual time to be alive, this has got to be it, wouldn’t you agree? England is drowning in floods, California is dry as the driest of bones, snow in Cairo a few months ago– and weather extremes are only the most obvious signs of significant changes for us humans.

Keep-Calm-and-Carry-OnThe collective energies are imploring us to “keep calm and carry on,” as evidenced by this slogan, from WWII England era, now revived and popping up everywhere. It is an apt reminder for us all. In moments of near despair, I find myself torn between wanting to stay under the covers all day, and being down on my knees in prayer. The prayers often do not even have words, though. Because what is going on is so huge, so beyond anything we have experience with in recent memory, that it is more like a state of profound awe. These words from Aisha North’s blog seem to sum it up for me right about now:

“By and by, you will find yourself becoming very new indeed, but still, it may not even feel like that to you. At least, not superficially, for as all of those brand new parts of you start to kick in, your focus will automatically shift, and you will switch seamlessly into your very new way of BEing. Those deepest and most profound transformations that you go through may not be perceived as such, for they are so profound, you will lose any contact with that old version of you, and looking back, it will be like looking back on someone else’s life altogether. Or it will be like looking at a piece of fiction if you will, a play acted out by actors, each one performing their designated part in what has been titled “your life.” And this is in fact exactly what has taken place up until now, for what you have lived through, has all been designed to give you the opportunity to be exactly where you are at this exact point in time and so, as you are reading these lines, we can only congratulate you all on a job very well done indeed.” – Aisha North, Manuscript of survival part 394

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Author: SingingBones

When we sing over the bones, we are calling the wild nature, the instinctive soul back, singing it alive again. To live with our wildness intact, is the greatest gift a woman can give herself. "It is the holy poetry and singing we are after." C.P. Estes

8 thoughts on “Attempting to keep calm and carry on

  1. We are having an unusual February with the temp in the 60’s and beautiful. Having never made friends with the cold, I am rather greedily enjoying it all. However, I do realise that we do need the rain and even the cold.
    Winter, when the world often looks frozen or asleep. however, as you know, there is much going on underground as Spring is not that far away. Before we can move on, sometimes we must turn inwards and do the work there. For some, that is meditation, something I have never had much luck with. That is, until I began painting. I get lost in a canvas and globs of oil paint and the world is much different when I re-appear, or at least I am. Then I am reminded of the fact that I can’t change all that is around me, I can only change myself. When I do that, my environment seems to welcome the change.
    Remember, Spring is on the way! :)

    • Thanks for the encouragement, Lea. Once again, you give me a glimpse into your beautiful world. So glad for you and your neighbors to be having a lovely February there! Yes, of course I too know that spring is on its way…. and I hope that along with nature growing and blooming, that I too will do so in my soul and my new life. transitions take time…. and this is a particularly rough one for me, as you can tell! with love and blessings, Leigh

  2. Hang in there. It’s been a tough ride here, lately, too. One thing that helps me–maybe it will help you to cope–is to try to perceive each challenge as an individual event, rather than look at the whole past few months as a singular disaster like falling down the stairs (which, I admit, it sometimes feels very like). Each individual situation, in its moment, I can contend with. When I look at things that way, I manage to muddle through.
    Best of luck, and be comforted.

    • Hi Ann, thanks for your encouragement and suggestions. The word disaster esp. jumped out at me and made me chuckle… such a descriptive word! Well I can try your method, although there certainly is a continuous thread of pretty uphill difficulty running through this time. cheers, Leigh ps: hope things get a bit smoother in your world too!

  3. “All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of things shall be well.” – Julian of Norwich

  4. Leigh…what we are all experiencing is a total breakdown of the old paradigm of separation….and it hurts! The weather is more evidence of it;; when things are treated atomistically, with no concern for their impact on the whole, you get what we have. And, as you know, I am a natural optimist so I won’t belabor you with cheery thoughts…but I do recommend that you (and all your readers) get a copy of Charles Eisenstein’s ,THE MORE BEAUTIFUL WORLD OUR HEARTS KNOW IS POSSIBLE….this is the “real mccoy”. Read it, act on it and you will begin to see a way out of this morass!

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